What I wish you would experience too

What I wish you would experience too

Sometimes I feel so inadequate
To tell you what I've found
I've had it for so long
And I know how old things sound

The strength of my understanding
Ebbs and flows like the tide
And when you walk my beach
Sometimes important details seem to hide

You may think I have a path for self improvement
And I understand the sentiment
But were that true
I'd be in a impossibly hopeless predicament

White, pure light floods me
As I lift my eyes I see the degrading materials of my life shear off and leave holes
All of my plans to describe the perfection I've seen falter
Because I know to be good enough to carry the light
I would be ripped apart and destroyed

I feel so weak
And then I feel a hand
A trickle of joy and love
He's chosen me
He likes me
Somehow he'll use me

I don't think it's anything I've done
I screwed up before I got started
But I get to walk in joy and hope my whole life
I get a full course meal when I was broke

This.is.it.
I know it doesn't fit what everyone thinks is love
He says our actions are wrong despite our society affirming us
He knows where we're at and uses us anyways
Guaranteed acceptance
He embarrasses what society thinks is love because he is love
He wants to walk with you
He is gentle and enjoys real life.
He is also noble and our defender

I want you to experience Jesus